Everyone’s gone to bed. Lights are off in 90 percent of the house. The street light’s orange glow is a comforting sign that it’s that time again, the late night. The part of the day where I should be asleep, but, there I sit, alone in the office with the only light on in the entire house. It’s become routine, over years, for me to be the last one awake at my house. I’m frequently up until the early morning, all alone, in what might seem like a depressing scene.
But, it’s not. It’s in fact, the complete opposite. It’s very peaceful, to be awake when the rest of the world is asleep.
Why? Well, it’s really the only time where I feel like I can freeze time. During the day, there are so many things that just get in the way. So many people that want to talk, so many responsibilities, it’s when those things happen where you just chalk it up to “well, that’s life”. Life- it can’t really get you late at night. That’s what I see it as. Time at 4am, in a way, is frozen. There’s no impending work shift I’ve gotta immediately prepare for, no one to ask me to hangout, no class to worry about, and, if I’ve done this right, no assignments to fret over. It’s just time that I can use however I want, I can catch up, refresh myself, and most importantly- remember where I’m at.
Sometimes, a day is just too busy for me. I forget about stuff that matters to me because I’ve got stuff I gotta do. Priorities. The hustle and bustle of life, the real world. You can get caught up in all of the day to day workings,and tend to forget about your actual life.
A morning person or a night owl? I know that being up late isn’t possible for everyone. People have work in the morning, class in the morning, or a meeting, etc. But for me, right now, it is. So, I have a choice to make- would I rather spend a few hours in the morning doing what I want, or would I prefer that block of time at awkward times such as 1,2,3 am? Well, if I’m smart, I’ll go with the morning- everything’s open, people are actually awake and doing stuff- I get that. The alternative? Fucking freezing time. At 2 am, like 5 percent of people are awake, at 3am, that number probably dips to like 2-3 percent. Don’t quote me, these aren’t real statistics, they’re just guesses. But, I prefer my me-time to be when it can be just that- me time. Not time to hear about a dude’s new PR goal at the gym, or to hear a businessman’s loud phone call at Starbucks. While I admittedly love the morning, the 2-3 days I experience it per year, I just can’t get myself to sacrifice the hours at the end of the day.
That’s all for now.
Thanks for reading
Luca DeJesu, 3:58 AM